Why is that.. my evil sinful heart can be forgiven by the One who.. has never sinned?
Yet, I can hold a grudge against someone who hurts me just a little compared to how I hurt God.
My best friend, will always be my best friend. Even if she doesn't want to be. I will make the same promise I did to her as I did to Ciara, Julie, Kalyx, Hannah, Hope, etc.
You will always be my best friend.
Even if you don't want to be.
I will always love you the same.
No matter what you do,
I will always remember you like this.
Beautiful, kind, amazing, worth the pain.
One day when we are older,
if you are angry or you simply forgot me,
or if time simply takes us apart,
I'll still be here if you ever want to come back.
Once you are my best friend,
You are in for life.
"Oh Father wont you forgive them,
They don't know what they've been doing.
Father, give me grace to forgive them,
Cause I feel like the one losing."
I don't know why but my heart feels like it's going through mourning of a death. Like they are gone.. and aren't ever coming back. I think that may be because i know it will never be the same. So I keep thinking about our amazing memories of staying up late and just talking. I'm trying to delete the bad ones and remember the good ones with acceptance of moving on. Sometimes I just want to be sad about it though. I just want to cry. Why is wrong it to be sad? Everyone expects me to just go to work, school, and keep moving forward and forget it all. I can't just forget.
I will always love you though.
