Hello There...
So it's like 2:40am and I haven't been able to sleep. Been laying here for quite some time.
I tried watching some Youtube videos (the usual: Pewdiepie, Vanoss, failarmy, etc). Didn't work. So then I tried just laying quietly. My brain kept me up still.
I started thinking about things that have made me sad lately. Posts I've seen about people calling others homophobes or haters when that wasn't even the situation.
Let me explain: Some drunk guy started cursing at two gay guys who were in a play and they labeled it a hate crime... but I say if we are going to start calling things like this a hate crime then everytime some drunk guy calls me names we should respond the same. But honestly... he's drunk.. how could he or anyone take seriously what he says?
I've been feeling sad though because well I'm a Christian. And people label me a homophobe. I'm not sure the people who are calling me that though know what a phobia is.
Let me clarify something. I'm not afraid of homosexuals. They're just people.
I believe 100% what the Bible says. I believe it is God's inspired word and it is my guide to life.
So yes, I don't agree with normalizing homosexuality.
HOWEVER, disagreement does NOT mean fear.
Let me also clarify.
Disagreement does NOT mean hate.
I could go into all the reasons why I don't agree with normalizing homosexuality but I'll save that for another post.
Here's something I find ironic.
People are upset because homosexuals are bullied and made to feel ashamed, etc. (I don't agree with bullying either).
AND THEN: Pro-Homosexuality activists make this "Homophobe" name to taunt people who don't agree with homosexuality. And they do all the same thing bullies did to them.
What?
Why?
I know not all do this. You can't really generalize anyone for anything in life because life's not that simple.
But we do..
Not all homosexuals bully people who disagree.
And not all people who disagree hate.
Alright. Now that I've gotten my whatever out let me tell you about the rest of my night so far.
So I was sad.
and I got all emotional because well it's in the middle of the freakin night and it all got to me.
AND my phone's dead because well it decided to go into a coma and not come back.
So I had the idea to continue reading the book we've been reading in my college group "Un-eclipsing the Son" by Rick Holland.
God is so good. He calms my heart. Through reading and just reminding myself who Christ is my heart was just put at peace. Remembering that God holds this world. Nothing can separate me from Him and He's all I need.
I've had a lot going on. Lots of new acting opportunities. I'm even going to LA and Nashville this month for various things I get to do. Everytime something comes up that I really want to do- I instantly try and research how to make it possible. I'm learning how the first thing I should do is pray because God is in control and can give and take away but it's all for good.
For example. I got booked for a job tomorrow I really wanted to do. I prayed about it and due to some circumstances I am unable to go. Disappointing, yes, but I can easily brush it off knowing that God is in control. Haha. He's my manager. And He's perfect for the job because He knows exactly what jobs and people will be best to work with so that I can glorify Him most and live to the fullest.
Well. I ought to try to sleep. If you're having a phase of insomina as well check out these verses I found: http://www.faithdeployed.com/2010/06/bible-verses-for-sleepless-nights/
Goodmoght!
