With everything currently happening I feel like this one I'm going through alone. It's not that there aren't people who aren't willing to listen. That's all they can do though is listen. They can't go through this with me. They can't be here in the moments when I feel helpless.
I could grab my phone right now and text the first person I think of and let them know how I truly feel. They would send a sad emoji and an "I'm sorry". It wouldn't help though.
"Go ahead a wish me well. I'll cry a wishing well."
I've scared away one of my best friends. The other can't be here with me, and I would never ask her to. So that sense of closeness is gone. It's just me and my thoughts now.
And that's it I guess.
