3 hours of getting 10 teeth drilled into with no sedation.
It was long, and the pain afterwards was awful.
I decided to take today off because I'm sore and because I have felt a lack of rest.
Lack of restful time with the Lord and also lack of time to get things done that need to be.
This is hard balance for today.
I've had a lot of choices to make...
Los Angeles? When, how, what?
Dog? too much money? worth it? am I making a mistake?
Mom? Am I abandoning her? Am I helping enough? too much? not in the right ways?
Work? Am I doing a good job? Am I trying too hard? Am I not trying enough?
These questions go through my head all day.. .and I'm exhausted.
I don't have clarity on why I'm so uncertain.. haha.. that's ironic... but I really don't.
I don't know why I keep questioning everything and myself.
I just want to make decisions and feel sure about them, and accept their consequences.
This questioning will keep me still forever.
I guess it's time to read that "Just Do Something" again.
"With our white flag sailing in the night,
eyes pointed to the sky,
hand up and open wide,
open wide"
I lay down and slept; I awoke, for the LORD sustains me.
~Psalm 3:5
My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
~Psalm 62:1-2
