Thanksgiving- 2012

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Tonight heading to Sabbina's for dinner. About 15 people will be there. Other than Sabbina's family and my family I won't really be close to anyone there. Which is interesting considering I've never really gone anywhere for thanksgiving other than with family. I'm super excited though. I hope it will be amazing. 

The one thing I'm sad about it I missed the parade! Which makes me sad because I LOVE the parade!

Short update on life:

 I've been talking to Bill again. He's been texting me and of course pyschologically analyzing my every move.  He told me his theories. He was wrong ;)

Lately I feel like i've been getting back to me. I've been making a lot of videos on my channel www.youtube.com/RebecaDonovan1

I'm not so dependant on friends anymore. Now I still have hard days.. but i'm getting better. Instead of constantly needing someone with me i'm learning to be ok alone--- and not destructive :)

Ya know what hard? Trying to make yourself "thankful".  I mean lets be honest we all say "I'm thankful for my family" but when you are with them everyday its hard to feel that thankfulness. Last night I watched the movie "Click" and it definitely makes you think about time..

Here's what I'm gonna do. I'll make a list of things I'm TRULY thankful for and maybe it will put me in the right mindset...

I am thankful for...

1) My new dress I'm wearing 

2) My ability to write/type out my thoughts

3) Music

4) My cell phone

5) My piano

6) Guitar

7) My mom- who gave up her dreams to raise me and make me her entire world... who watches as I leave her world and create my own.

8) My father- who has stayed around. Who works everyday so my family can eat. Who is secretly super sentimental ;)

9) My beautiful older sister- I love our conversations and being able to just drive out in the middle of the night if we need to with her or to be total nerds together :)

10) My best friend since 5th grade Hannah-  A lot has happened between us.. I've done a lot of crap to her... and she deserves better than that.  She's stayed around. I miss being able to just be with her all the time...and things have changed. Things will never be the same.. I don't regret it though. I'm thankful for all the times we had and hope we have more good times. Just different :)

11) Hope Marinello- Decided to walk into my life out of NOWHERE during a (what she didn't know) difficult time for me. Didn't aactually tell her the truth until three years later. Yet she still loves me for me.

12) Sabbina Ron- Came into my life a little over a year ago. Did more in my life then she could ever understand. She made the movie "To Save A Life" true. In some ways and not in others. You had a huge part in changing my life. More I could say.. but I can't :)

13) Caitlyn, Vanessa, Bill, Julie, Ciara, Kalyx, Chris, Will D, Will B, Levene, Spencer King,  Renee, Isaiah, Alex P, Kristin Grenelle, everyone at lakeside- You all have had an impact in my life in making me who I am.. and though who I am isn't very great.. you've had a positive influence so thank you. For encouraging me. For giving me a push forward.

14) Stephanie Bruns- You've listened to all my nastiness and you know my heart. You help me so much. You have no idea. You more about me then anybody I know and I know I can trust you with everything I tell you. It's nice to have a teacher to run to in the middle of the day and someone who I can tell absolutely anything and who an correct me when i'm wrong and comfort me when I'm hurt.  You make me want to encourage people. You make me want to be different. You make me love God more. Thank you.

15) To all the people who ever rejected me at an acting/singing audition: Thank you. You made me stronger. 

16) Delicious food :)

17) My laptop

18)  Movies- Glorious movies :) 

19) Coverse, vests, skinny jeans, and all things fashion that is an art all in itself.

20) Our troops- happy thanksgiving and thank you.

21) America- I'm proud to be an American

22) For everything that's happened this year- God has shown me my heart.. humbled me.. and brought me to Him

23) My pastor Danny Hodges- I'll always love him

24)  Sabbina's family- who brought me and made me a daughter. Thank you for all the food, showers, clothes, vacations, rides, beds, events, adventures, hostage takeovers, and love you let me be apart of. 

25) God- Words cannot even describe what YOU have done for me.. I could write a book of all that you've done.. but you uh... kinda beat me to it. Thank you for your word. Thank you for everything. I don't deserve You. You shouldn't even look at me.. Yet you did. Saw my sin. Forgave it. Then you gave me a perfect record and said I was now apart of your kingdom. Holy moly... Indescribable.