April 28th, 2013
This
weekend I went on my senior trip. It was absolutely amazing. I couldn’t have
asked for a better trip. Grad Bash at Universal Studios was exciting and fun. I
wasn’t really interested in the Pitbull concert going on. I’m not even quite
sure who he is but a lot of people were freaking out for him. We stayed there
until 2am. Didn’t get to sleep that night till 4am. The next day was spent at
the pool and then went to Blue Man Group. They were awesome! I’m not sure how
to describe it, you just have to go see them yourself. Then it was off the
Longhorn for the biggest meal I’ve ever ordered. Overall was a great trip.
A couple
things were on my mind that had my mind spinning though. It didn’t ruin the
experience they were just side things. This guy that I liked for a long time
(it’s a long story) blah blah blah blah blah we are great friends now and he
was on the trip. Well I can’t help the fact that I still think he is adorable and
we are just really comfortable with each other. I can’t help but feel
protective over him as my best friend.. Well this other girl on the trip was
hanging over him the entire trip…Well.. except for the times were I had him.
She kept trying to pull him away and then he would bring up
stories about him and I and she would just stare at me… AWKWARD. Don’t get me
wrong, I don’t want to date him.. but she just seems like trouble and I don’t
want to see that go up into flames. Or maybe I haven’t fully let him go. He’s
gonna be with someone else eventually… I just need to accept that. I think.
Confused! Alright I’m just gonna take a moment to write out everything in my
head about this situation:
This girl
slightly bothers me generally because she’s really touchy and I like my
personal space. I love my best friend (not romantically, people) and I don’t
want to see him get hurt. I think I’ll always care for him because there’s
something just different or special about him. He’s the closest guy friend I’ve
ever had. After all we’ve been through he knows me. He knows how to calm me
down when I’m about to have a panic attack. He knows what I think is funny and
what subjects not to bring up. I also know all those things about him. We talk
a lot alike and he is like a brother to me (even though I think he is
adorable). This girl just kinda popping in and trying to join our friendship
feels intrusive to me. It’s like we have this awesome friendship and all the
sudden jumps in and thinks they can just take him from me. Maybe that’s what is
bothering me. I know my sinful nature is butting into this as well. I WAY
overthink this. This isn’t evena problem and I don’t think he likes her.
Ok I’m done. Time for pictures.
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