August 13th, 2012- First Day Senior Year

6:27pm: I'm a Sennniiioooorrrrrrr!!!!!! 
It feels really good to finally be a senior. I have so many responsibilities to take on this year. I'm super excited, scared, happy, sad, confused, and everything else that high school girls normally are. 

Ya know.. Sometimes I wish highschool was like this:

Considering I love to sing, act, and dance I would so love that world.
However... That is not real school.... Real school is... Well...  Its:

I find it funny how a school within itself can be so segregated and people can hate you and you may dislike others.... HOWEVER...... When football season starts... Suddenly everyone joins together to totally bring down the other team. We wear our school colors proudly and scream till our voices are gone. Any dislikes within the school is drowned out by the anger for the other school.

Apart from my thoughts on high school I recently have a new complication.
A good friend of mine who shall not be named for the reasons of respect has been kinda on my mind. 

This friend I've only known for a little bit.. but I instantly felt comfortable with him. I guess you could say I "let him in". Let him in to the real me and all that ness. Well.... I trusted him... 

I have an idea!!!! Let's tell it like a bedtime story. 

Once upon a time there was a little girl who met a boy(its not a love story). This girl became very close to this boy because they could relate easily and he was very sweet to her. However... he started to cross the line.. he started saying things that hurt the little girl but she let it go because she believed what he was saying was true.She would never tell anyone though. Then there were times he would say such smooth things that drew her in and made her stay and feel so special. He'd ignore her...make fun of her.. say negative things.. She let it go. Then one night she sends him one little text simply saying something along the lines of hello. The little boy.. having had a hard night or something explodes on her. Let's it all out with a tad of sarcasm to keep her reading. He brings up her weaknesses.. He totally blows her off. She's hurt. Angry. Trust has hit the ground... So she says goodbye. 

Cold As You

Now as she reads back through texts and actually sits down to think about it... she notices she's felt more cold with him than special. Don't get me wrong. He's been wonderful... but it's crossed the line. It's so confusing this feeling. I'm not sure what to think.