August 8th, 2012

 Not Alone

11:36am: Yesterday I had not taken any time in the word of God. In the past week there have only been two days that I did not take time in the word. The first day was the 4th and I ended up with the wrong mindset the entire day because I was not thinking about the Lord. Then yesterday.. and as you can tell from last night's post I wasn't focused on the Lord.

Last night I ended up texting Sabbina and she helped me out. I always feel bad when I wake up after having texted a friend all mess like. I feel bad cause I feel like I'm bothering them when I need their help. In the midst of temptation I'm not myself, and I feel bad that my friends have to put up with that.

I think I want to stop feeling bad. I think I'm going to. If I keep feeling bad then I feel like I shouldn't tell them when I'm struggling. If I don't tell them I'm more likely to give in. They so far have not complained about helping me. So, why should I think that I'm bothering them if they have not shown that? Today... I'll believe what I know is true until proven otherwise. Thanks Steph. She gave me that phrase.

I have something else I want to post about... but I'll do that later..